Lost memories

Lost Memories in Time

I love you like I love my mom...
Oh wait, you are my mom,
Which means that I haven't forgotten your voice,
I remember your cookies coming out the oven, smelling like chocolate,
Which means i actually liked them for the warmth they gave my gut
I remember the way you would sing to me at night,
When I was scared of the storm outside,
I remember your angelic voice telling me "I love you"
Which means you are still in my heart no matter what,
I remember the last time I saw you in your hospital bed,
Because I miss you and want nothing more than to see you one last time,
I remember the times we went riding in your old beat up silver Oldsmobile,
Which means I didn't forget you getting a ticket for driving to fast,
I remember the way you gave me my first bike,
When you brought it out of our old rickety shed, shining so bright, as if it were a star,
I remember when you brought me to my first day of kindergarten,
Meeting Ms. Nichols, seeing all my classmates, eating pizza with all of the families,
I remember how well you controlled your emotions under certain circumstances,
Because you always had a way of keeping things calm,
I remember having my first loose tooth,
Of you wanting to pull it out with a washcloth,
I remember how nice you were to everyone, no matter what they said or did to you,
Because you were just that kind of person,
I remember when you first got sick, and had to go to the hospital,
Because you passed out before we got even close to the emergency room,
I remember not understanding what was going on,
Since I was so young, I couldn't quite comprehend why everyone was acting frantic,
I remember being scared when you couldn't remember who I was when you were weeks away,
So I was brought to my dads for my own convenience,
I remember being told that you had passed away, and me asking what that meant,
So my dad told me that my mother was no longer with me on earth, that she had died,
I remember jot believing him and running away from home towards the Petersburg park,
Because I just wanted to get away from all that I thought were lies,
I remember going home with tears flowing from my eyes, going towards my upstairs room,
Because I just wanted to seclude myself away from the world around me,
I remember being mad at myself for not being by her side before she passed,
I remember being angry at my dad for not being with my mom when she got sick,
I remember being bullied by students for not having a mother in my life,
I remember having to explain to my parents why I would come home in tears,
But most importantly, I remember after she had passed away, all the good times we shared,
I remember crying at night because she is not in my life anymore,
But I do know she is in a better place and that she is watching over me with a heart of gold,
I know she wants nothing more than for me to be happy and to look forward in life,
I know she doesn't want me to be depressed, but to be joyful of who I have in life,
I know she is my Guardian Angel who will protect me when I'm in trouble,
Now I must continue my journey to happiness and complete school, I know she would want that.
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