I can remember....

I remember the day I found out my grandpa has ALS.
My parents weren't the first people to tell me my cousins were.
I wasn't quite sure what it was so I looked it up.
I spent hours upon hours researching it.
When I found out that's what it was, I was heartbroken.
Also that there was no cure was even the worse because eventually I won't get to see his smile everyday.
Accepting was the hardest thing because it wasn't fair and he didn't deserve it.
But still today some of my family don't accept it.
I accept and believe in him and tell him to be grateful that we still have time.
The time isn't gonna last forever but we will make it last.
See his smile everyday makes my day 10 times better.
The way that I see him now suffering that he can't walk any more or struggling swallowing breaks my heart.
The way that he sits in his 7hr doctors appointments and cries.
No body understands the way he feels when he sits there or even when he wakes up an says the only thing that keeps him going is my grandma an our family.
He doesn't wanna leave us which is the hardest thing for me to take in because when I hear that my heart drops and I start crying.
He will always have a special spot in my heart that no one can change.
So from this day on we just have to believe, stay strong, and pray.

MR